Giselle’ Diary

The life of a single girl.. March 26, 2008

There she sleeps.. curled up in a ball.. blissful and peaceful, there is a slight smile on her unconcious face and her hair frames her face like an angel’  halo…

No late night talks with her boyfriend to wonder about were they are heading to in their life.. or what the future holds for them.. or when they are going to marry… No discussions about why he could not call her earlier.. Why he wants to sleep so early.. Why he can’t stay up for some more time.. Why cant they meet.. Why dont they get married..!!

She wakes up and goes to the bathroom to finish her morning chores with a sweet tune on her lips.. She does not sit in bed and wait for his call.. She does not lie in bed with eyes open and wonder what went wrong and what she could do to make up to him for whatever it was that went wrong!

But when she’ all ready –  dressed and breakfast done.. she does not have anyone to accompany her shopping or to watch a movie or to just go out for lunch..Her friends are all on the phone talking to their respective boyfriends.. making plans for the day.. Where to meet.. Where to go.. On the bike or in the car? What to have for lunch… Chinese or Indian? Which movie do we watch… Comedy or Action? English or Hindi? No questions such as; Shall we meet your parents today?  What colour do you want me to wear? Do you want to taste this dish that I just cooked yesterday? Shall we hang out at Music World? …

She sits alone in her room with a book.. yearning for someone who would be by her.. who would want to spend time with her and get to know her for who she really is.. She yearns to care for a person whom she can lavish her love upon…

All her friends are ready and the faces she just saw last night as either tear-filled or crying or accusing or disappointed or angry are all beaming now with 100 watt smiles on their faces.. looking dashing and eager to meet their guy! She just does not understand how this change of feelings could come about over a single night!!! and that too.. while sleeping!!

She spends her time in the house.. roaming around ..wondering whether she should go out alone and instantly changing her mind as she is sure she will see all the couples in town at every mall, every coffee shop, every book store, every cybercafe, every music store.. at each and every hangout! And she feels down.. the tune she was humming vanishes and her shoulders droop as she resigns herself to a day of eat and sleep…

Her girlfriends return and as she flits among them she hears about their day.. their outings.. the small expressions of love.. the tiny gifts.. the words of affection..their moments of togetherness…and she feels an envy towards her friends who have boyfriends..who have something that she doesnt but what she is eager to find.. She is eager to find that one true love.. which eludes her everytime…

She wants that feeling of belongingness…that feeling of being cherished.. that feeling of being the most important person in someone’  life.. that feeling of being thought about and missed.. that feeling which brings a smile on her lips.. and a bright shine in her eyes.. she yearns to feel love..

Yet, she abides her own sweet time and goes about her own work with a lilt in her steps once again knowing that she will find her man when the time is right.. Her mind diverts to her upcoming industrial visit to places all over India and just thinking of all the fun she’ going to have with her friends brings a smile to her face and she thanks God that she need not have any care in the world and can do as she please!!! She has her freedom!!! 🙂

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This topic just popped into my mind cz’  I keep hearing from many of my friends about how lovely it would be if only they had a boyfriend.. Having a “boyfriend” is good and bad.. I think I have bought out both these sides to it with this lil story…