Luckily… March 21, 2009
Posted by Giselle in Uncategorized.Tags: cooking, family, job, life, Love, personal, Relationship, work
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I am SO lucky to be married to my husband!
He’ just Perfect! He has been SO supportive of my job timings which have now increased to 11 hours a day due to the financial year busy season! He helps me with all the household chores and especially with cooking! I have NO idea what I would have done without him…
It feels great to be married to such a gem of a person! 😀
I agree the work timings are a bit over the board and it just is not fair on him. Mine and because of that, his schedules are all in haywire! The body clocks too! Our meal timings and the cookng is all on such a low scale these days that I feel so bad about the fact that I am not able to look after him as I used to.. 😦 Sometimes I feel I just ought to turn in my resignation letter. But the joy that you get on the last day of every month is just too tempting!!! 😉
Well, who knows what may happen when.. SO, Im just taking things slow. Yes, I am looking for another job with better timings so that I could have my personal life also. But right now it is just the job! 
I knw. It does sound so bad. Doesn’t it…
The days after… August 17, 2008
Posted by Giselle in Relationships.Tags: blessing, continued, days, family, Full House, Giselle, Jason, legal, live, Love, marriage, married, Mrs., NASCAR, pamper, warmth
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Continuing from where we left off quite sometime ago … Marriage went by so fast! Awaiting the day for oh! so many years now, it feels like the D-day whizzed off as though I were watching the NASCAR!!!
And hey! On that day, as I was walking down the aisle towards where my fiance sat, it felt like I couldn’t feel my legs and any moment I would turn and run away home, away from all my family, friends, relatives and my beloved who was waiting for me upon the stage. But then, holding on or rather clutching my dad’ hands, I finally ended up sitting beside my love. And then, everything was a blur till the thought finally struck me that I was married!! That I was finally legally Mrs. Giselle Jason. (Thats how we decided upon the name; instead of the surname,coz’ it is the man Im marrying.)
It feels great to be married. Yes.. Nothing very different other than we are living together now and I can take care of him and pamper him to my heart’s content!!! 🙂 But everything else feels the same and in fact so much more comfortable than even the thought of what if I had to marry a stranger!!!
Getting to know him is like opening a present everyday (O yes.. I did take that statement from the sitcom “FULL HOUSE”.. I really enjoy that show! But, its true!!!)..
Still.. It feels as though Ive been blessed to have been loved by such a wonderful man! He’ caring and considerate.. He’ willing to bend a little and humour my silly antics… Although, he sure is strong in his principles and views of certain aspects of life. But the love for me shines through his eyes and just being beside him envelopes me in this cocoon of love and safety..
His love is like this old warm blanket.. Very comfortable.. very cozy.. very warm and absolutely loved!!!! 🙂
The “BUT’s” of my thoughts… July 6, 2008
Posted by Giselle in Relationships.Tags: adult, anticipation, anxious, changes, child, complacent, different, engaged, entity, family, freedom, independance, independant, marriage, marriages, Relationship, responsibility, separate, troubled, unique, wife, worried, yearning, young
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What do you do when a change is coming over in your life.. and you are entering the next stage of your life but you don’t want to leave it and move on but instead, you want to remain a child forever…?
What do you do when you want to enter into marriage with the man you love and yet you dont want to leave your parents..?
What do you do when you are happy and confused at the same time? What if your heart beats at a rapid rate each time you think of having to leave your own home and move in with someone else within another 5 day?! OMG! 5 days!!! Just a mere 5 days and I’m married!
I’m getting really worried. I have not been able to slim down as I wanted to.. I don’t wanna leave my parents and sister and family.. I don’t want to leave my own home and my freedom.. I don’t want to lose my independance and become responsible for another person too.. I don’t want to have to take care of anyone else other than me yet!!!!
I want to remain where I am.. … I am yet a fledgling, having not seen the world in its true colours.. but having to fly just because I look big enough to be able to take on the responsibility..
Can I? Will I?? … O God.. Must I????!!! A whole different person who is a separate entity from myself.. A whole different family whose habits, characteristics, mannerisms, opinions, and thinking is a world different from that of mine!
I don’t want to go.. I don’t want the hours to fly by and I don’t want the days to fade into nights and yet again bloom into another bright day!!!
I want to stay exactly where I am.. But I cant.. Can I? I love him. But, I love my present life too. I don’t want things to change..
I wanna have my freedom forever!!!
Alone Forever… April 6, 2008
Posted by Giselle in Relationships.Tags: experience, family, feelings, lonely, lost, miserable, sad, sorrow, suicidal, suicide, tears, unwanted, upset
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Today I feel cheated. I feel betrayed.
Something that I had thought would not happen, happened. Someone I thought would be with me through thick and thin, whether we be having a fight/argument or not, left me stranded..left me just hanging there with my tumult of emotions, tears running down my cheek..making me feel unloved, unwanted.
Am I such a bad person that Im not required in anybody’ life..? Am I so much an extra addition in everyone’ life…? The sorrow just doesnt dim. The tears just dont stop.. cz’ the two people who did these things are so damn very important to me… 😥
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Does it not hurt you when you are not treated the way you treat others..? Does it not make you feel miserable when you are treated like shit and just turned to when someone requires something…? Do you not feel unwanted when the people most close to you, dont feel the same way about you..?
It does hurt me. I do feel miserable. And I do feel very unwanted. 😦
It makes me realize that in the end, it is only your parents and your siblings you can depend upon.. cz’ they are the only ones who would keep aside a fight for you. They are the only ones who would tell you when there’ something wrong. They are the only ones who will leave everything to rush to your side when you need them. They are the only ones who will take your side forever and never humiliate you i nfront of others. They are the only ones who will love you unconditionally, ferociously, passionately! …
I once thought that it is a husband and wife who would and should stick together no matter what. But now, I have learnt otherwise. From personal experience.
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